DECIDOPHOBIA

A mighty fortress 

is our 

precomtemplation phase.

It's our 

prayer 

and our privilege 

not 

to comprehend this.

*

Picture the interminable

sea of electrons 

all tugging 

like tethered cubs 

at their  

lackadaisical nuclei.  

Who the hell are you 

and I  

to feel at ease 

with anything? 

*

On the other hand—

*

Meanwhile, somewhere 

above the north Atlantic, 

a majestic 

arc of terns 

swoops and takes its 

morning dip 

without ever once 

resolving itself 

into a file of distinct 

individuals. 

EITHER WAY

I know it's
cliché, but

really:

the spaces 

are for all 

the things 

I'm not saying. 

Look, I'm not 

making 

excuses; 

even music 

uses silence—

or is it 

silence that uses 

music 

to both 

introduce and 

excuse itself? 

Either way, 

it's plain 

(and also 

elaborate—

are you 

starting to 

get it?) 

that nothing 

you could explain 

exists 

solely at its 

own discretion. 

ALMOST SUMMER POEM

Cradled 

by the shade 

of a softly 

weeping crab apple, 

starlings 

bathing in the blossom-

spattered puddle—

stowaways, 

perhaps,

from some ancient 

sylvan past—

or else, 

augurs 

sent back (by 

ourselves?)

as a promise: 

the best is still

ahead of us. 

WHY I WRITE, MK. III

It's not to speak 

my mind 

at all, 

but rather

to climb 

inside the language 

like a power suit, 

like chainmail—

to feel huge 

and yet invisible, 

buoyantly quixotic 

in a world 

full of windmills—

to feel utterly protected, 

secure in my belief 

in the feats 

of which it's capable—

and yet still, 

when I get 

near an ending,

to flail;

to panic, then 

go limp;

to let go 

and admit 

I don't know shit—

and

even if I did, 

I surely 

haven't said it. 

R0

Something new is going around. 

It's been said 

(and now, so much

repeated) 

that the birds 

or insects started it.

Incongruous, 

unwelcome—

it doesn't care; 

it hops the line and 

pops up everywhere.

Tough luck, they say; 

no escape 

form this zombie. 

The best you can 

do is climb 

willingly inside it, 

surrender your head, 

fill your mouth 

with its replicants: 

"What's new?"

"How are you?" 

None can withstand it. 

And it's far too late 

to stop it (if you're 

reading this,

that's obvious). 

In all manners 

of speaking, the virus 

of utterance

 

has spread across the planet. 

THE PARTY IS MANDATORY

Whereas light 

is compelled 

to move at the speed of itself, 

to fill 

to the limit 

every room, every instance 

with de rigueur vitality 

before perception 

can catch up;

whereas tight 

gray-green leaves 

at the ends 

of hapless branches 

are bayonetted 

into being 

per the strictest regulations  

of the chlorophyll metabolism;

whereas even random 

chance itself has

got to be created 

on the back 

of the beck-and-call dime 

of compulsion:

so everything, it seems, 

is made—

not just 

caused—to happen. 

"In god we trust"

because 

we must. 

IDENTIKIT

Believe in yourself, 

they all used 

to tell me—

as if I 

was really 

a caped crusader, 

a crimefighter 

cloaked in a nom de guerre. 

They may have 

had a point there 

about the mask 

of duplicity, 

but some superhero 

I've turned out to be—

I can't even seem 

to bend 

even slightly 

the bars 

in the prison 

of this body. 

*

Trying to convince yourself 

there's no such thing as solidity 

is a lot like banging 

your head against a wall. 

Protons, 

electrons, 

gamma radiation—?

Referring to yourself 

in the first person 

suddenly just feels wrong. 

*

There's nothing pacific 

about the ocean, 

the way it 

keeps thrashing its wings 

against the sand. 

But who am I 

to envision a better way? 

Who am I 

to say 

how to bear—

to withstand?

Immeasurable 

reach 

needs

impossible hands.